Sayang, i just cant smile without you..... :'(

yes. i cant.
it is so hard... u know.

kenapa? u bersikap membuang i terus dari hidup u.
and u teruskan life u, like u just dont care about me anymore.
langsung tiadakah ruang kemaafan dalam dirimu?
kenapa harus begini?
kenapa kau membuatku rasa begitu teruk?
kenapa kau tidak mahu membuatkan keadaan bertambah lebih baik?
kau suka begini?
sedangkan aku siksa setiap hari....
dan aku benar2 tak mampu hidup tanpa cintamu.
aku benar2 tak mampu sayang...

kenapa aku dilukai...
dan dilayan macam sampah
oleh kau yang pernah mencintaiku
betapa sakitnya hatiku
kau terus buangku dari hidupmu...
aku tak dapat fahami kenapa kau sanggup takde perasaan seperti ini...

u took my happiness away.

how could u, darling?
hey, sweetie... it is so hard for me to let u go. i wish i could. well, u know that i am not letting u go. i will never give up... omg and im crying rite now...

sayang, i've told u that u will never be replaced.

ok.... i still want u, and i need u. i need ur love. that is all.

u hurt me, yes. and i hurt u too. we both hurt each other. but that was a mistake. we made mistakes, and we must get it right. i know that we can make it better, sayang. rite?

but why ur heart is just so.... u dont love me anymore or u dont want to see my face again?

u know what, people says that we fall in love once. but i fall in love all over again everytime i see ur face, everytime i hear ur voice, everytime i think of u... and that is true.

hermmm.... u will never know how hard i've been through this for all this time. its already a month, and i still try to make my life better, without u.

u are responsible to bring happiness in my life, and u take it easily from me... and u know, i never feel happy since then.

how could u honey?

im hurt. so hurt.

and last two days, i made a stupid thing, i try to commit suicide, i did, but it didnt work.

i dont know.

i am so sad, and what i was thinking is i love u. but im hurt and my mind are so tired being tortured by u. u came to my dreams, everyday. ur so sweet and loving and i cant erase it from my mind. and that hurt me. so much.......

i am so sad.

missing u so much

i wish that i can get u back...

but i just dont know....